Often I wake up and I just feel really flat and unmotivated and bad. The memories of that first night at burning man fill my head still so vivid and I wonder what the point is. I can usually push through it, but it’s so hard if anything stressful or negative comes up. Then I just feel like crying and breaking things and can’t get anything done. God I wish this was all over. I wish I could feel happy and be myself again.